Why do I do it even though I know its going to hurt me, such a wrenching pain in my stomach when ever I see something like that. It just brings all that pain I went through back. But I just cant help myself I want to know how he is, in some ways I do still miss him so much but then he broke me and showed me no remorse. Some times I just wish I could completely forget about him but then id for get all the amazing times that we had its so hard some times. But im so happy now and so in love and am being completely loved back so I feel so guilty for having thoughts about my ex. But I know I shouldn’t because there’s no way id ever get back with him. I just wish i knew how to be feeling…..